Have you ever been lost in your thoughts. But when I mean lost your thoughts I don’t mean negatively. I mean just lost where it’s just you and your thought alone in silence. You don’t even realize it until you’re like what just happened? where did I go? or what was I doing? how did I get distracted? If you haven’t I would describe it as an odd feeling because it’s not negatively nor positively it’s just nothing just quiet and silence and then you blink. When I go into the trance of “spacing out” where it’s just me and my mind alone and it’s quiet I don’t know whether to feel sad or a bit relief. When I come to I feel confused. I feel lost but also okay.
Today for instance, I was reading my book and listening to music and out of the blue I actually felt it. I felt myself slowly drifting into and I shook myself to coming back because I was enjoying my reading. But what I don’t understand is why was it happening when I was enjoying myself. I was peace. I wasn’t overwhelmed or stressed I think that’s why this time I felt even more confused but also I found it interesting because I felt myself going when usually I don’t.
I don’t know if what I’m writing makes sense but that’s how I felt today. It happened mid-day I would say around 2-3 pm it’s now 5 pm. I’m still getting adjusted to reading it could be that. I’ve been reading for the last 3-4 days it might be my brain telling me to take a break but why if I’m enjoying myself book but I guess it makes sense I need to rest from reading perhaps. But I am on a streak fyi. I have finished 2 books within last week on the 30th of March and April 1 of 2026. I’m reading another book on which I feel like I’ll finish either by tonight or tomorrow.
Back to the topic have you felt this way? Or I’m I losing it? If I am why is it with everything going on? School? Parenting ? Relationship? Life? I’m not sure, school is fine almost over with spring term I do need to keep pushing myself though making sure I don’t miss any deadlines I have to stop slacking off. Parenting it’s pretty okay, all they need is attention, food, and care well more one then the other my little one needs it more then the oldest but I’m still there giving them it’s not much of a difficult thing although my 2 year old is going through a phase but it’s understandable. Relationship I feel like it’s still good strong my husband may be tired / exhausted from the new job but between us feels good. Life well life I don’t know. It’s going okay I’m pleased I would say.
Thank you for listening/reading just felt like letting go and just type how I felt / feeling.
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